That lasted for about two years and then she decided that boys were icky and stopped playing our games. A few months before that happened I started playing the same game with my brother Darin, who was two years younger than me. I liked watching him pee and then holding his hard little thing in my palm, and he seemed to enjoy fondling my peter too. This stuff lasted another few years and then it progressed to more active incestuous activities like licking each other's dicks and sucking them.

Somewhere in the middle of all that, we spent two weeks at the beach with just our mom, her sister Carole, Carole's husband Lewis, and their daughter Nancy, who was five years older than me. Uncle Lewis was in his early thirties at the time. It was his beachhouse, and one of his rules was no sandy feet or wet bathing suits in the house. This meant that after every time you went to the beach you'd have to get in one of the two deck showers that Lewis had installed in front of his house. They were pretty big and intended for more than one person to share, with solid doors that latched shut. The very first time my brother Darin and I showered with Lewis, all three of us got hard-ons. Lewis openly jacked off in front of us and tweaked our little boners. He didn't make much noise since his wife, his sister-in-law and his daughter were in the very next shower, and he smiled and put his finger in front of his lips: Shhhh!

One day all the women went shopping and Lewis went to the beach with me and Darin. Before lunch we came back to the house and got in the shower together again. This time Lewis was already hard when he took his bathing suit off. He sat on a little bench in the shower and asked us to sit with him, and then we all played with each other's dicks for a long time, pretty much without saying a word. Then Lewis stood up and faced us so he could jack off and cum on the bench next to us. We just stared at him as he beat off in our faces. The minute he finished spurting he grabbed a towel and went into the house. Darin and I finished washing up and played with each other for a minute, then grabbed some towels and went inside too. Lewis had shut himself in his bedroom, so we watched TV in the living room until the women came home. Lewis apparently fell asleep after his orgasm and his wife Carole had to wake him up.

Nothing else happened until the day before we were supposed to leave. Lewis and I went out night fishing on the ocean and caught a couple of baby sharks, but that was it. In the shower we were both hard again and Lewis asked if he could suck me. I shrugged because I didn't know what that was, but when he sat on the bench and leaned over and sucked my peter into his mouth, I thought it was great. I held his head there until I was too tickly and sore to continue. Then he made me to it to him and I would have liked it more if his penis hadn't been so big and he hadn't kept trying to ram it down my throat. Finally he came on my tongue and I swallowed it willingly. Lewis asked if I would ever tell on him and I said no. Then he asked if I would do that stuff with Darin and I shrugged, which meant "probably" and Lewis knew it. He said we could do it again next summer if we wanted. But we never did, because Lewis divorced Carole around Christmas of that year and we never got to go to his beach house or see him again.

When I was in fifth grade I met a kid named Eddie who soon introduced me to all types of sexual stuff, and not long after that we included my brother Devin in our games. It started with a Truth or Dare session and ended up with all three of us naked and sucking each other on my bed. When Eddie introduced us to anal sex we were eager to try it. Devin's dick was too small to stay inside me or Eddie for long but Eddie and I could fuck each other or Devin very easily. None of us were old enough to cum but we enjoyed it all very much. This lasted throughout middle school too, up until my freshman year in high school when I was 13. At one point it included another kid in school with me and Eddie, but I can't remember his name - it was Jay or Ray or Joe or something like that. That kid spent the night with me at Eddie's about four or five times and each time we all had plenty of sex.

When I was a freshman in high school, I finally started cumming during masturbation. The first time that I came in Devin's mouth when he was blowing me, he nearly vomited and he was really mad. After that Devin wouldn't have sex with me any more no matter how much I asked, ever again. So for most of my freshman year I was just a walking boner. Also I started to become aware of how obsessed I was with incest. Up until now it wasn't that big of a deal to me, but as I learned more about it and found some related pornography and scientific literature, it grew into an obsession. I fantasized about it all the time, about every member of my family. I fantasized that every pair of siblings in my high school (there were four, I think) were sleeping together..........(cont)