Dear Blog,

My name is Meghan Summerby. I am eleven years old but I will be twelve in three months. Well actually two months and fifteen days, not that I am counting, lol. I am in fifth grade in elementary school.

Gee, I don't know where to start. I have a Mom and Dad. Mom is named Sarah and my Dad is Jim. They are pretty good parents I guess. Kinda strict. Then there is the brat. He's only two and is really spoiled. He is named Jim Junior but we all call him Junior. Really original, huh.

Then there are my closest friends in the whole world. That is Susie and Charlotte. But we all call Charlotte, Bubble Butt, you know why, right? It's not that she is really fat or anything, maybe a little round in a few places but she has a real big butt. Kinda like that rap song we all play on MP3.

Oh blog, I really love my IPOD and all the MP3's it plays. I got them off Napster before they shut down the free file sharing but don't tell the fuzz, they might come and bust me, lol.

Anyway Susie is sort of a gutter mouth, she curses all the time and being already twelve and older than Bubble Butt and I she gets away with it at home and all. It's just her and her mom, I don't know who or where her dad is, never saw the dude since I knew her and that was in first grade. I like Susie the bestus of the two, probably because she is a lot wiser than us and because she knows so many cool things.

Like last week she brought a pack of Kools to school and on the way him we stopped in the park and smoked them. There were only about eight or ten left but I smoked three but they made me sick. I'd only tried once before and Susie said it was probably because it was menthol.

Got to go Blog, Mom is yelling for me to turn the light off and go to bed. Told 'ya they were strict and all, didn't I?

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Monday June 22, 5:12 p.m. -

Dear Blog,

Just got in from school. Mom and Dad don't get in until around six-thirty so I have the run of the house. Squirt is at day care until Mom picks him up so I can explore and get into shit all I want. Oops, got to remember not to slip and use that word in front of Mom and Dad, they would shit their pants. There I go again, Susie really is a bad influence on me.

Anyway in school today I saw that hunk Jeff Tobey again at lunch. We have a combined elementary and middle school since our town is so small and the tow schools mingle at lunch. He was sitting with his buddies Butch and Jerry out by the quad and they were like talking and all when Bubble Butt and I came by to eat our lunches. They were kinda eyeing us over and we sat on a bench near them and Charlotte giggled because she knows what a crush I have on Jeff. He is such a hunk. Dark black hair down to his shoulders and what shoulders! WOW! He looks like a football player which he is. Being an ninth grader and all he is so much more cool than the dweebs in my class. Sherry said he's almost fifteen and she knows because she is dating his younger brother Ted.

He is the star and I do mean star of our ninth grade football team and they won the Hamilton Valley Middle School championship this year. Jeff is going to Paramount High next year and I am sure he will soon be the star quarterback there too. Butch and Jerry are also on the team but Jeff is the star.

Anyway we were both giggling and then Jeff got up and actually walked over to our bench. He put one foot up on the seat about a foot away from me and leaned down, those dark eyes of his melting my heart and making me flutter in places I'm not supposed to flutter in or talk about. I could see his leg above his socks and my Lord, he had lots of thick black hairs growing there, not like the pimply geeked kids in my class. He grinned real big and said, "Well what's so funny girls. Can you let me in on the joke?"

Both of us were literally shitting our pants Blog, we just sat there a moment too stunned to utter a friggin' word and then we both just started giggling. Jeff reached out and chucked me under my chin with his fist and said, "You kinda cute squirt, maybe one could hook up some time/"

Blog I am sitting here and I am wet in places I have never been wet before just thinking about those words and dreamy eyes looking at me. Blog, if he would go with me I swear I would do anything he wanted me to do and I mean ANYTHING! I've never done THAT before but I know girls in my class who have. Susie Wentworth gave it up to a boy in her class named Charlie last month. It was all over the school because Charlie was blabbing about it. All about how she was cherry and he popped it and she bled all over his mother's expensive silk sheets and he got in all kinds of shit.

I don't know if I want a rep like that as young as I am. It's not like Susie is an outcast, just some of the "good" girls won't hang with her now and the sort of slutty types think she is great. I fall more towards the good girl side Dear Blog and I like the crowd I hang with.

Oh Hell Blog, what is a girl to do? Bubble Butt thinks I should give it up if her asks me to do the nasty but I just don't know. It's not something I can discuss with Mom, she'd shit a brick. Guess I'll dream on it tonight Blog, maybe thinks will be different tomorrow. ......(cont)